Slimy

Strange how I already feel lost in the new year. It's been a long time since I've been in this place, this low place. I feel so flat, and I'm not sure how to start on some kind of ascension to mental health and serenity. There's a lot of insecurity to be dealt with, a lot of grief to feel. For some reason I feel like the most slimy disgusting thing right now. I want to get rid of that feeling. I've had it with that feeling. It's about time I let go, celebrate myself, and somehow move on to appreciating the people around me. I would really like that.

A good part of me just wants to run off to a different state or country and hide out in some apartment for a year just catching up on sleep and silence.